Today, I went to my doctor for the first pregnancy checkup. The day you find out your pregnant from a little tube is exciting, wild, and emotional. Then, if you’re busy taking care of two, rambunctious boys, it’s easy to forget about your status.
Today, I saw on the computer screen that little, tiny, peapod of a baby inside me. I saw the flicker of the heartbeat. Seeing it on the screen just made it real again, like “Oh yea, I really am pregnant” :)
As I drove home, I thought about the hardships I’ve been encountering with Ethan’s growing stages, the independence and all, and the exhaustion that has come from it. I hope that I can be worthy of this third child coming to our home. I sometimes hope I’m doing ok with the boys. Kevin is still in the cute stage, Ethan is in the tough 3 stage. I’ve been praying a lot for guidance and help with him. When times are hard, I try to remember that he’s a sweet, child of God, and he has a great mission to accomplish here on earth. How lucky am I to be his mom, and to have him in our family. These thoughts help me so much. And so, with the thought of another baby in our family, I hope I can give that new one all the love and nurturing that he is entitled to.
Just taking it one day at a time:)
4 comments:
Oh Erin. You are going to be a great mom to this wonderful spirit. When God asks us to do something, he blesses us with what we need to accomplish it. You have been prepared for this time. It's going to be great. There are times when it will bring you to your knees (heck, I think I've worn out several pairs of jeans that way), but it is going to be wonderful.
If you can always remember the honor it is to be a mother to these wonderful spirits, you will be doing better than me. We just try our best and trust in God to make up the difference.
*Big hug*
I think you are wonderful. Those boys are awfully lucky to have you - just remember as they flex their independence, that you deserve respect. It is an important lesson for them to learn as well.
Love you!
WHAT?! Pregnant!! That is soo great! You are an amazing mom with amazing talents. You will be great with a 3rd. Wow! I can't keep up with you!
I'm so happy for you. Oh and dito to what Kerri said!
Congrats about the ultrasound- it's always exciting seeing the baby for the first time!!
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