A new year

I’ve been home with the kids for the past two days, due to their colds and it being too dang cold outside to take them out. I think I’m getting a little cabin fever, and miss my sweetie, who’s been working these holidays to help us get caught up. Seriously don’t know how to manage paying the normal bills next year when the summer hits and the power bill spikes up. I can’t even imagine how to do it when Shaun will be in nursing school, but that’s another worry for another day.

Last night was quiet for New Year’s Eve. I put the kids to bed, worked on photography contracts and welcome packet ideas, and watched some “Office”. Around midnight, I heard loud fireworks go off, which scared my dogs. I thought of many friends getting together with family for the holidays, and tried not to have a pity party on myself.

I read a friend’s thoughts of not liking New Year’s resolutions, but going more for a theme for the new year. I liked that a lot. I think my theme would be to slow down and to simplify. In my on going quest to understand a growing toddler’s mind, I’ve been struggling with letting go of stupid stuff, picking my battles wisely, etc. Isn’t that ridiculous? I mean, I’m sure we all young mothers go through this. After a full day today of disciplining, I feel that I have not been the best nurturer in the home. Any time I try to be consistent with rounding the boys up for family prayer, they run off screaming away from me. It’s quite funny, thinking about it now:) Still, its a struggle, and I wonder if it is even making a good impact with them.  See, you know it is when you’re on the outside looking into your friend’s world, but when you’re on the inside, it can be hard to see.

So, I just want to do better next year. There are so many good things I want to do, but I must be careful. I’ve got to remember to simplify, and do the important things first. Balance. To be slow to react, and quick to listen when the kids are being crazy. To build family relationships better, and take hold of the fleeting moments. To always let me sweetie know how much I love him, and how happy I am that he found me 5 years ago, and took me out to dinner.

Thank you, sweet readers, for taking the time to read my ramblings. I love being a wife and mom. I love my boys so much. Some days are really hard, and the adversary can really work on making you feel like you’re not doing any good, but I know that prayer can lift you out of those thoughts. I know it. It’s so great how the spirit works. You’ll still have hard days, but the spirit is there quietly whispering for you to relax, and to know that you’re doing just fine:)